Fighting hard

i have lost myself in the world of words ...........it seems there r no actions .........i need to b very active or increase the propotion of action to reading ..........i want know to read n experience all thoughts in the real world for reading about the match is not that great as playing the game n i want to play ..........the real games ................a completly different set of mindset is required ..........don't know when i shall acheive it but the fight is out n i have to get it.